Maybe it's time

Why does winter get me down??? Here we are only the first day of October and already I am feeling the brace for the cold. I'm walking around my house cold on the inside, my hands are cold. I do not want to turn on the furnace as a matter of principle but I am cold!! My garden is turning brown in the back, the fence is up-maybe it's the fence. I feel closed in all of a sudden. why does that remind me of winter? I am going through my twice yearly ritual of changing the clothes (there's not enough closet space for all seasons) and perhaps it's making me a bit trepidacious about the coming cold. The same old clothes. I hate them all it seems. Maybe it's time to go shopping., but I am a bad shopper, buying only what's cheap, not what I'll like next year, not what will be in good shape next year. I've been sick for a few hours and well for a few hours, maybe that's it-I'm in sick mode still. Maybe it's it's time to go for a run and get into health mode. I really want to get a job, but I do not know where or how to look, I do not know what I want to do or what I am able to do. I do not have a short term plan. Maybe it's time to get one going.