My new goal in life

Muddling through it all I find that some moments are great, some ok, some terrible. Is this what it's all about? Just trying to get the right combination of moments? It's time for me to get a plan together-a life plan, a year plan, a bloody week plan! R and I had a conversation the other day during which I asked him to pay attention to his negative thougths and try to switch them to positive ones-just to see what would happen, just to keep track of how many negative thoughts and attitudes came into his head in the course of a day. I have started to do it myself and I am astounded by how much negativity there is swimming around this head and life of mine. All lot of judgements, a lot of fear and worry, a lot of complaining. I am also astounded by how hard it is to switch to a more positive sound track for more than a second or 2, how hard it is to pay attention to this. It's going to take a lot of work but I am determined to switch that innner voice. That's my goal this year-to turn off the negative talk-the judgements, the criticisms, the fear and doubts about everything and to try to find a more loving voice inside myself.