I am about to start a new job, and as usual, I am feeling that same sense of fear and dread that I associate with change. The hours will suck and most of the dread/fear and guilt comes from getting home so late, almost bedtime and having to trust R to take care of things at home, which I seriously do not think he can handle. Typically it takes him 2 hours to cook even the simplest of meals and I am already freaking out about how hungry my kids are going to be, not to mention the thrill of coming home to kitchen disasters. R is a good guy, but structure and organization are not part of his world-just what that 4-7 pm period needs. Maybe I am just being negative, or condescending, maybe just making excuses for not trying something new out. I keep wanting to talk myself out of it. My friends-ever pragmatic just shrug and say, try it if you don't like it, just quit.
So I will start slowly, hopefully and get back into the swing of things. This job is a small (perhaps big) step in the direction I would like to go so I feel that I should just suck it up and go for it.
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he might just do a good job. his job though, not yours.
good for you and i can't wait for more deets.
He will do great. in his own way. Have faith woman!
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