I am at a loss as to how to move forward. I feel inert, wanting to wait for a more sure sign of fight or flight. I don't know how to stop the negative stuff from taking front and centre of my mind and heart. He asked me this morning to try and think loving thougths of him (said he would try to do the same for me). The trying aspect made me sad and I responded that I was going to try to think loving thoughts about myself.
I matter. My thoughts matter. My feelings matter.
(my first thought as I wrote this was how pathetic it sounded).
ok, so at least I have a sense of humour.
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yes. and your sense of humour will be your saviour should you choose to wait this out. or whatever you choose to do.
what are you gonna do?
how do you see your life 5 years from now? do you see you two happy together, totally in love, or at least...sure of your love and supportive of one another?
i just hate to hear the sadness...and i can almost feel the tension between you from here.
Thinking loving thoughts about yourself sounds like an excellent idea. Our thoughts shape our feelings. And never underestimate the power of humor. Take care.
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