sick

Now I've gone and got myself sick. My body is finally giving in to this constant negativity. Sore throat-most likely from crying and yelling alternatively, stuffed up, tight chest, aches. And it's the most beautiful day in the world so it's like a double fuck-u. I really really really want and need to get something good going on and I need to do it now-but first I am going to bed, I am going to sleep, I am going to read, I am going to watch the squirrels scamper around outside and the leaves trail downwards. I am going to dream about the future and concoct a do-able plan and I am going to ask the universe to arrange itself once again in my favour. Wish me luck.